Reaching A Fever Pitch.

I feel pretty lousy about how I just acted.
Even though I was completely honest.
I'm supposed to help out, they have always helped me.
I feel selfish now for what I've said.

I didn't mean to..
I've just truly learned what the value of a dollar is now being here at Disney.
How much my time of nine hours in a small, hot kitchen is worth as a small college program student.
When I look at my bank account, I feel proud of it.
But it's so very tiny and as a result I feel somewhat guilty when I buy a lot of stuff.
That money is going to the future.
It's the "Restaurant Fund".
It's the "Dream College Fund".

I'm just very protective of it.
And I feel bad for how I came off.
You've made sacrifices for me.
I must now do the same.
There is no other alternative, because it's only fair.
But it's the only money I have in the world.

Natural's Not In It.

Nothing has happened really since the last time I updated this thing.

The only thing news worthy I have to tell is that I'm finally starting to become comfortable and acclimated with everyone at work, the work itself, the roommates, and living in Florida.
I'm actually happy.

So that date I was supposed to go on?
Yeah... no go.
He cancelled due to the rain.
No, seriously... the rain.
No joke.
The guys at work have threatened to beat him up and go over to EPCOT to terrorize the guy for me.
I'm not a big promoter of violence but I couldn't help but smile.

At the end of the day, I'm more bummed that I didn't get to go on my date, then not getting to spend time with this guy.
He was nice and all, but he just had this sort of air about him.
It's hard to explain, but at least he did me a favor and prevented anything from happening between us.
He's texted me and stuff, but I really haven't  responded.
I'm not all that interested anymore.

oh well..

In The Gap Between The Two Trapezes

Work isn't so bad anymore.
Everyday I'm learning to better myself.
To correct my mistakes and get myself out of the deep end ("the weeds").
And of course, no one has let me fail.

We have a new College Program Student at work.
His name is Drew and he is very nice.
He is actually dating another CP at Royal Table and it was by chance that he was assigned there.
Some people are just lucky I guess.
It's amazing to see how far I've come in just a few weeks, when I've had time to watch him and his actions.

My new roommates Ally and Sam are fantastic people and are both in culinary.
That is all.

I met someone on the bus one day.
I was going to the AMC at Downtown Disney to see the new Pirates movie.
(Which I thought was great.)
He was new and needed help with which bus he needed to take.
Being my wonderful-awesome-super-helpful self, I told him what he needed to know.
It just so happened that the bus he needed was mine.
So in short, we started talking, he asked me for my number and we have been texting each other back and forth for like two weeks.
He has now asked me on a date.
And I, of course, said yes.
Hopefully it goes well.