Sing Me A Lullaby

I find my Wines class very interesting and inspiring.
There is just a lot of information to remember and it will only increase in difficulty.
Thankfully there are tutoring sessions available almost every day after class.
So now just comes the studying.
Thankfully it is all material that I am very interested in.


The stress of it all has now made itself known to me, even only after the second day.
I haven't been sleeping very well the past few nights now.
I'm fine and attentive during class, but at night I just toss and turn, completely exhausted.

I don't know what to do.

Stand By Me.

I am feeling a bit homesick right now.
I had a dream last night that I was at Disney World with my family.
But then I woke up and they weren't there.
I was just in my dorm at school.

I just want to be home right now.

The stress is starting to get to me.

Stupid.

My eye has been twitching for the past four days.
I can't seem to get it to stop.

If I had the choice of choosing between standing for twelve hours a day or taking an important costing exam, I would happily stand.


I hate math.
And exams.
And teachers saying I only have 15 minutes left to take a test and I still have six questions to finish.
And the fact that his statement made me feel like I had to rush.
And the fact that I did rush.
And the fact that I failed by one question.
And the fact that I now have to take this stupid test again during the hardest class I will probably take at school.

And the fact that I feel like I failed myself.
All because I felt rushed and I felt like I couldn't take my time.
I feel stupid.


Is it possible to have test anxiety?

Thyme Flys.

Time has been flying by for me here at school
I can't believe I am already in front of the house in my Banquets and Catering class.
I'm really enjoying interacting with people and seeing how the other half works.

Today I was Maitre'd for class.
I was so nervous that I would mess everything up and back everyone up on serving the food.
But I didn't!
Minor mistakes here and there, but mistakes that were understandable and our teacher Mr. E said I did just fine.

Everything is going by so quickly.
I don't know how to feel about that.

Graduation is May 4th.
Less then half a year.

'Til The World Ends.

It is now officially the new year.
Two-Thousand Twelve.
I am graduating my Associates this year, which completely blows my mind.

I actually still can't believe that I go to college.
I still feel so young.
So naive.
I know I still have so much learning to do.
And still so many mistakes to make.
How could I possibly only have a single year left of schooling?
It just doesn't seem like enough time.
I still don't feel ready.
And I still don't know what I'm supposed to be readying for.


19 still feels a lot like 9.