Finds, And Shall Find, Me Unafraid.

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul..


Lather. Rinse. Repeat.

I'm So Sick And Tired..

Of being sick and tired.

This is silly.
I'm going to be happy from now on.
The end.

To-do list:
Surround myself with people who actually give a damn and not just about themselves.
Make friends with people who actually listen and don't just wait for their turn to talk.
Go on a date with a nice boy.
Find some alone time for myself.
Get some sleep.
Start doing my laundry in a timely manor.
Play a game of pool at the rec center.
Read my new Bob Dylan book.
Finish my David Sedaris book.
Stop cutting my fingers.
Resharpen knives.
Keep desk organized.

And I Find It Kinda Funny, I Find It Kinda Sad.

This whole situation makes me sad.
I don't want to deal with it.
Stop talking.
I don't care.
The more you talk the worse it gets.

Everyone is so selfish and petty.
It makes me sick to my stomach.
I hate yelling.
I get very very upset whenever I do.
To the point where I start crying afterwards.
But I don't know how else to get my point across..

I don't know if this is worth the effort.
And I'm not quite sure how that makes me feel.

>>>>

Steve, if you are reading this,
Happy Birthday!
I know I've said it to you already, but I thought I would give a shout out.
Hope you like your Bear and that your day was great.
(even though you had class.)

I'll Understand When I'm Younger.

I sliced my thumb really bad today, cutting carrots.
It hurts so bad.
Still does.
Lots of blood of course.
But you didn't really need to know that
Took deep breaths, bandaged and wrapped it.
Sucked it up and continued prepping for my soup.

Today was actually a really good day.
With some minor exceptions.
But I try extremely hard to not dwell on them too much.

I want to see my family.
I miss them.

Things with Christian got a little better today.
If you don't know, we've been arguing a lot in class.
It's taken a toll on me a bit because he is my friend.
So it's very hard sometimes to just leave it in the kitchen.
And to blame the stressful situation.
But when he says my name and looks me in the face, it's hard to not take it personally.
I'm trying.
I really am and I think he might be trying too.
We had dinner together tonight, just us, and I think it helped a lot.
Hopefully this continues.

P.S. Chef Coyac loved my soup. Probably made my day.

She Moves In Mysterious Ways.

I happily spent my snow day with Stephanie and had a grand time.
I <3 Juhbronie, our new special friend.
That is all.

Gandhi & I Share A Personality, Top That.

Introverted - 22%
Intuitive - 12%
Feeling - 62%
Judging - 44%

= type INFJ

Combined all of that and you get me.
Well, my personality anyway..

Counselors have an exceptionally strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others, and find great personal fulfillment interacting with people, nurturing their personal development, guiding them to realize their human potential. Although they are happy working at jobs (such as writing) that require solitude and close attention, Counselors do quite well with individuals or groups of people, provided that the personal interactions are not superficial, and that they find some quiet, private time every now and then to recharge their batteries. Counselors are both kind and positive in their handling of others; they are great listeners and seem naturally interested in helping people with their personal problems. Not usually visible leaders, Counselors prefer to work intensely with those close to them, especially on a one-to-one basis, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes. Counselors are scarce, little more than three percent of the population, and can be hard to get to know, since they tend not to share their innermost thoughts or their powerful emotional reactions except with their loved ones. They are highly private people, with an unusually rich, complicated inner life. Friends or colleagues who have known them for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that Counselors are flighty or scattered; they value their integrity a great deal, but they have mysterious, intricately woven personalities which sometimes puzzle even them.

Counselors tend to work effectively in organizations. They value staff harmony and make every effort to help an organization run smoothly and pleasantly. They understand and use human systems creatively, and are good at consulting and cooperating with others. As employees or employers, Counselors are concerned with people's feelings and are able to act as a barometer of the feelings within the organization. Blessed with vivid imaginations, Counselors are often seen as the most poetical of all the types, and in fact they use a lot of poetic imagery in their everyday language. Their great talent for language-both written and spoken-is usually directed toward communicating with people in a personalized way. Counselors are highly intuitive and can recognize another's emotions or intentions - good or evil - even before that person is aware of them. Counselors themselves can seldom tell how they came to read others' feelings so keenly. This extreme sensitivity to others could very well be the basis of the Counselor's remarkable ability to experience a whole array of psychic phenomena.

From Two-Thousand Miles Away..

Everyday is a day closer.